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A Bitter Sweet End

So much has happened. I really don't even know where to begin. You may or may not remember that I wanted to have another child. I was scared to go through the process of IVF again. Not that IVF itself is physically painful. It is the emotional roller coaster of fertility treatments in general which was causing me to have fear. The ups and downs of maybe being pregnant. Then getting the phone call from the doctor that you are not pregnant. Having to go through another cycle of shots and medicine that makes you more hormonal than normal. You get my drift.

Well, I took the leap of faith and went back to my fertility doctor. Only to find out that I had endometrial cancer which of course, was not diagnosed right away. So my journey has been bitter sweet. I am cured of cancer. As of now my chance of re occurrence is very low.

I had to have a partial hysterectomy and say goodbye to my dream of having another child. At least a child that I can carry.

Honestly, I have missed blogging and connecting with so many of you. I am just coming back to life. I was and continue to be depressed. I have been putting one foot in front of the other and just trying to get though the day on any given day. I really have been faking it until I make it. This diagnosis, surgery and emotional aftermath have been one of the most devastatingly painful experiences in my life. I could not even begin to express the heartache I have experienced. My life has changed.

I will share more. I hope someone can hear my story and know that they are not alone. This year has to be better than 2011 was for me. I can not take much more of my heart being shattered. To all of you, I wish a beautiful, healthy and happy New Year.

When "Nothin" Is Nothin

Do you remember how old you were when you played doctor or nurse for the first time? Think about it...this is a REALLY important question. My husband told me it is when you are older (than 4 1/2) I hope he is right.

For the life of me I can't remember what age I was when I started playing that game.I do remember playing it maybe,um, once or twice ya know! I HOPE this game is no longer popular and kids today are busy with so many other toys that it will not even be an issue. I mean when I was growing up there was not that much to play with; today kids have SO much more than we ever had, right? This is NOT making me feel any better. Sort of like Christmas...there can be a ton of presents but the child likes the box the best...UH OH I might be in BIG trouble.

Little Bits started a camp and has become friendly with this little boy Aiden (whose name I love and it always makes me think of Aiden from Sex and The City...HOTTIE)It started out very sweet. She came home from camp one day and told me Aiden is always trying to hug her, with a huge smile on her face. Then the next day she started talking about him more, then several times after that I asked her about her day and she told me she shared cheese curls with Aiden and played with Aiden.

All week it has been Aiden....Aiden ....Aiden. When I pick her up at camp she says good-bye to Aiden and not to anyone else. The other day I went to find her (at pick-up time) and, um, she was in a room with Aiden (alone) and when I asked her what she was doing she said in a very coy voice "nothin". I have the typical little miss 4 year old who thinks she can do everything herself including driving and forgets that she is not 30. Her "nothin" was suspicious but also the way she looked at me was too.

So, after days of racking my brain, I still can not remember how old I was when I became curious and played doctor. I do remember in my early years of grade school we would pretend to get married. Is this just her first real crush and I have nothing to worry about? I am not ready to handle this...I feel like I am still just cathching my breath from the toddler years.

10/10/10

If you are or know someone who is getting engaged this is a once in a lifetime opportunity.

On Oct. 10, 2010, 10 couples will be at the Trevi Fountain in front of The Forum Shops at Caesars on the auspicious date of Oct. 10, 2010. When the clock strikes 10:10 a.m., ten men (or maybe some women!) will drop to one knee at the same time and propose to their 10 significant others.

The Forum Shops at Caesars, the world-renowned shopping venue, and Funjet Vacations, the family-owned business creating vacations far exceeding customer expectations, have partnered to make dreams come true for 10 extremely lucky couples.

Among the experiences the couples will receive:

All expense paid trip to Las Vegas, including flights provided by Funjet Vacations, arriving Saturday, Oct. 9 and departing Monday, Oct. 11, 2010.

Two-night stay at Caesars Palace.

Post-proposal dinner hosted by The Palm-Las Vegas restaurant at The Forum Shops.

A post-dinner event at PURE Nightclub.

Wedding gifts provided by retailers at The Forum Shops.

The once-in-a-lifetime experience to get engaged in the most unique of ways.

Couples are signing up at www.101010at1010am.com; the deadline is Friday, Aug. 13. The ten selected couples will be announced in mid-Aug.

Sort of makes me wish I was getting engaged again!

Summertime, Summertime

So MUCH has happened recently I just don't even know where to start.

The move is finally over and what a move it has been.

I must say moving with a child is rather difficult. I know this seems like a no-brainer thing to say, but let me just put it this way...Little Bits has a dog in her future. Yep, that is right. I resorted to bribing her to make her more excited about moving. Ahh, all the things I swore I would NEVER do as a parent, well I can now cross off my list because I have done them. I am hoping to put off the dog until the end of summer (at least) and best case will be that she will forget about the puppy or when push comes to shove she will back out of really really wanting a puppy of her own. Okay, I might be dreaming or wishful thinking but the thought of having to clean up after someone (thing or animal) just is making me crazy.

I finally got up my "brave" and went in for the MRI of the uterus. I am claustrophobic so going into the machine makes me insane. I start to panic. Hmm... wonder if this is related to something from my childhood? Note to self: ask my mother why I am claustrophobic. What did she do to me? Anyway, the results were better than I expected and my uterus is almost perfect. I have a very small arch. Probably something that would never have been picked up had I not had to go through every test under the under the sun before doing IVF. So, after waiting weeks on end for the doctor to call and give me the results, I am now sleeping much better at night.

I have decided to do the foot work and if it is meant to be it will be. Well, I say that for now. I am sure in a day or maybe a week, month or somewhere in between I will be going crazy and get baby obsessed. I do want to thank everyone for their support, love and kind words, and especially prayers. It meant the world to me. You really have no idea.

Furthermore, I am certain that the heat has affected my excellent parenting skills. I found myself telling my daughter yesterday when she said she does not have to listen to the rules, " You know what happens to people who do not listen to the rules? They go to jail!" My hubs looked at me like I had just turned into Dr. Jekyll. I've always prided myself on maintaining her innocence as long as possible. I've thrown killer glares at anyone who's dared to mention something I consider beyond her age. Now, however, I'm teaching her that if she asks for (okay, demands) more ice cream she's on her way to Alcatraz.

It gets worse. I proceed to say, "You have to listen and follow the rules in school - if your teacher tells you to do something you have to...;blah blah blah" I told her Mommy and Daddy have rules we follow. Daddy follows rules at work . I follow rules when I drive blah blah blah. Then I turned to my hubs and said, "This parenting thing is really effed up. You want your child to be a leader - to be their own person but yet you tell them to follow the rules and do what everyone else is doing. At little contradictory don't ya think?"

Wonder if this is why we started becoming such a dysfunctional society.

Thanks for bearing with my in my lapse of posting. I've a Summer Block Party (er, I mean Blog Party) you're invited to in order to thank you. Luxuries like a great new laptop to exclusive bedding...and I genuinely can't wait for you to win...Of course, participation is required. In fact, if you don't, you might go to jail.

Well , Martha Stewart, You Must Try Craigslist

So I was at the pharmacy waiting for Little Bits' allergy medicine (the allergist has just put her on Singulair and informed me that she is allergic to cats which, of course, she denies!) Next to me for my reading pleasure was a decorating magazine. Of course being in the process of moving I just had to glance. Featured were several fabulous finds from craigslist and the article continued to explain how you can update your look easily with such fab finds.

Naturally, I had to see for myself what craigslist was all about. After all, hubs could not complain I was spending too much money...blah blah blah if it was a "fabulous find" right? Right. The problem? Well I will let you decide for yourself.

This has to be the all time favorite "fab find"

!!!!!GORGEOUS IS NOT THE WORD SOFAS MARBLEN GOLD TABLES N BRASS LAMPS! - $3800 (HARRISBURG PA)

THIS ONE OF ITS KIND SET IS SPOTLESS FROM A PET FREE HOME N IN EXCELLENT CONDITION RED VELVET MATERIAL WITH GOLD CARVED TRIM , 2 END / SIDE MARBLE TOP TABLES N MARBLE TOP COFFEE TABLE , PLEASE CALL MY CELL 717 319 1582 , TERMS CASH 3800, OR BEST OFFER THE LAMPS ARE ALSO FOR SALE FOR AN ADDITIONAL $ 1800, IF U SEE THIS AD IT IS STILL AVAILABLE

Moving, must sell

I have alot of stuff but the biggest of the bunch is a nice cherry wood dining room set with six chairs in great condition. We are busy packing, I don't have time to put pics on here of everytrhing. I also have nice gun cabinet hand finished, not junk from Walmart. Brunswick pool table(paid $2500) make offer. A shed full of tools, yard blower, weed whacker and so on. I even have a 12' by 20' shed in great condition, yellow with brown shingles(you move it) Also a few items you need a I.D. card for

My note: Hmm wonder what that could be? Do they sell the items you need an I. D. card for at Walmart?

I have a leather sofa and loveseat they are in good condition. the colors are red and black. i plan to move in the next weeks so i need to sell them as soon as possible will take offeres DONT MISS OUT ON THIS CHANCE FOR NICE FURNITURES!!

Sofa and Love Sit/Bunk Bed W/ Matresses - $725 (South Jersey)

Date: 2010-06-13, 8:47PM EDT
Reply to: see below

Must Be sale, bought different sofa and I don't use the bed no more. contact no. 856-753-8330.

My note: I don't think this person paid $725 for this stuff when it was new. Secondly what the heck kind of description is that? Are you trying to scare people away?

DINING ROOM TABLE AND CHAIRS -

IN PERFECT CONDITION 267 394 2070

4 Piece Sectional Sofa - $150

Up for grabs is a fairly large, 4 piece blue sectional couch. The set includes a reclining section, a straight section, a corner and a chaise. Redecorating living room and this doesn't fit the style we're going for. I can't deliver, but I'll help you schlep it into your (large) truck. The dog and my grandma's blanket are not included in the sale.

My note: Hello, are people really that stupid?

Diner Table w 6chairs and Twin Bed w Mattress (Galloway)

twin bed with brand new mattress for free = $125

diner table with 6 chairs =$ 125

call hiren = 609-271-5996 $$$MAKE BEST OFFER AND IF ITS REASONABLE YOU CAN COME PICK IT UP!!!! $$$

furniture - leather sofa and baige corner sofa and appliances = gas dryer and gas stove

My note: Hiren, don't think this ad makes too much sense. Would you care to clarify?

**SOLID MAPLE WOOD ROCKING CHAIR-CHEEP**

Simple dining room set - not fancy! - $375

We have a toy poodle, but poodles don't shed, so no dog hair!

My note: Could you make this sound any more appealing? Don't think "salesman" is in your future.

42" Rd Table & 3 Good Chairs & 1 Bad Chair - $40 (Huntingdon Valley, Pa)

Date: 2010-06-13, 10:11PM EDT
Reply to: sale-sd7as-1746465206@craigslist.org [Errors when replying to ads?]

1 chair has a cracked post and has a split side rail under the seat (See Pictures). Few scratches in top. Available Monday thru Friday Next week 11/21-11/25/2010 .Please send me an email if you are interested and we can make arrangements for you to pick up.

Thanks

My note: Is it not the month of June? How long has this furniture been for sale? Maybe you should give up on trying to sell it already...or lower the price!

5-Piece Bedroom Set (Cherry Hill, NJ

Italian Provincial bedroom set consisting of two end tables, one Full-size (NOT Queen-size, NOT Kking-size, NOT Twin-size) bed headboard and footboard with metal frame, long vanity (72" long x 18" wide) with removable mirror, and tallboy chest.

My note: Could you tell me the size again please?

TABLE ( Octagon Shape - Gloss Black) - $50 (Westville NJ)

Octagon shaped repainted black table/cabinet. Has 2 doors that open and inside contains one shelf plus the base of the unit.
The front has 2 older but very classy dangling handles, nice and clean. The unit is in like-new condition and measures 24
inches tall, 26 inches long and 26 inches wide. Solid Wood (856) 469-5971

My note: What a way with words!

2 lombardy rd turnersville 08012 Longe Chair Stero Cabnet more.. Pick up Tv Cabenet from bottom (under neath) Or top will come off

My note: For starters have you ever heard of spell check and why would I/anyone want to buy a tv cabnet like that?

TABLE SET & 4 CHAIRS CLEAN GREAT CONDITION

TABLE 4 CHAIRS AND LEAF. TABLE IS 48 IN AND 72 WITH LEAF IN. SOLD OAK . CASH ONLY....NO I WILL SEND YOU MONEY ORDER OR OUT OF TOWN. I WILL SPAM YOU. THANK YOU FOR LOOKING

My note: I will spam you...what else is there to say to Mr. or Mrs. Evil?

Dinning room set beach wood Used 5 time!!!!! - $500

You are looking at a very affordable Dinning room set. This set has two lighted cabinets a the leaf for the table and it has six chairs. It is in near new conditon and it has only been used 5 times!! This set is in amazing condition and it is a beautiful shade of cream wood. I paid well over $11,000 for this set brand new and whoever buys it is getting a real steel. Please call me anytime at 856-297-0536 for more information

My note: I fail to believe that someone who can not spell 'steal' was able to purchase a dinning room set for over $11,000; is that wrong of me?

All of the above are unedited and taken directly from Craigslist. I can safely say that I have not found fabulous but I have discovered one of my new favorite sights for entertainment purposes. Laughter is the best medicine. I think docs need to prescribe craigslist to everyone. What about you? Did you find the posts as funny? Or am just losing my mind? On second thought, don't answer that, well, the part about me losing my mind (from packing) I mean!